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Im back in black...
The music shall entertain you while reading my blog...
My blog shall be my diary of my life...

Have u ever wonder that what is the purpose of revenge?Is revenge a good or a bad deed? Is revenge an emotion to satisfy u?

Well...all the questions above may appear from u...am i right. Ok. revenge is a bad deed after all. Dun revenge ur enemies. Dun revenge ur loved ones. Dun revenge urself. This is because, when u revenge to someone, u are as bad as revenging urself. Another words to say is...U will face ur own retribution. So please dun revenge all ur enemies ok. Let their sin haunt them down. Let their revenge awaits them down. Let their retribution pays them back. And let themselves turn them around.

As for me, i just get back my long lost statement from my long dead memory. Thank god i can still remember it as good as new. Erase ur hate feeling and paste it with love feeling.. This statement existed in me since i was sec 1. Its an old statement but the meaning is always new and never old.

Be a gentleman. However, before u want to be a gentleman, it is difficult to get that title. Why i said so? This is because...

1) Gentleman always get hurt in violence
2) Gentleman never use violence
3) Gentleman always gets the 1st attack
4) Gentleman never revenge to any enemies
5) Gentleman always give in to others
6) Gentleman never wins at first
7) Gentleman always win at last
8) Gentleman never lose in the end
9) Gentleman always win in the end
10) Gentleman can understand himself
So...are u gentleman enough? For the ladies...Apply this to be a gentlewoman ok.
Remember....Gentleman lose at 1st and gentleman win at last...
Be a gentleman...its worth it at last

I am a gentleman (^_^)...

My old pal of mine called me up. Known as 'Amy'. He is a very good friend of mine...Never fails to make me laugh. HAHAHA...Yeah yeah...bla bla black sheep....Talking funny and lame stuff everytime we meet. It been years that we never contact and see each other but today is a random day for him to random call me up....

We talked about our life...exchanging stories...missed our great time with one another and our members...So, we talk for sometimes and laughed and laughed and laughed.... Until.....when he started to open a topic which i hate to hear...BGR...

I cant lie what lies in my life. Thus, i explained my story to him even its hurtful. He really cant understand why i broke up with my 2nd ex...He said...she is too kind for me and i am too good for her...but why did we break up...??? A question that cant be answered forever...I just cant do anything but to keep my talkative mouth shut. I tried my very best to change topic but i failed. He was really disappointed to hear that. I just cant do anything about this matter. Im just a normal guy. So, that was my replies eventhough it never answer his question but...as i said...a question that cant be answered.

Then, we talked about our old lost and found members. I am very glad to hear that all my members have finally found their own girls. But its kind of...sad...Among all my lost and found members, I am the 1st guy to have a girl yet i am the last guy to have a girl. Its not a universal statement but its a fact even it sounds complicated. Then, i was happy to hear that he finally found a girl in his life. I hope him and her stick together like a glue forever ever after.

Lastly, what he said just make me smile. She had found her dream guy. I just make a gentle smile and feel happy for her. I hope all the best in her life. May her dream guy take care of her very well.

Then, he made me remind our long lost promises. The last one to have a girl lose and must admit defeat. HAHA...whatever....bla bla black shit. To all my lost and found members...All the best in your life...treasure and cherish ur love... (^_^)



What he hears is what he never get...
What he never get is what he hears...
What he sees is what he never owns...
What he owns is what he never see...
What he feels is what he never want...
What he never want is what he feels...
What he hopes is what he never hopes...
What he never hopes...is what he hopes...

What to do...?
What to say...?
What to hope..?
What to dream?
What is love?
What is miss?
What is joy and laughter?
What is his life?

What is FIQ....

Adik....Abang tadi mesej adik that abang sampai ur house around 4.30 pm but sbab keadaan yang tidak diinginkan, abang reach ur home at 5...30 mins late...so, abang entered ur house and never expected wat telah happened. U nangis...ur mama kate u dun wan to follow go geylang sbab u knoe im coming to ur house at 4.30 pm. Kebetulan u sampai and few minutes later, i pon sampai...

Adik...from what ur mama told me and from what i see with my own eyes, u really awaits me. U really touch my heart to teach u...Adik....im soo proud of u girl....my heart paused for that moment and time just touched me. Then as what i promised u... i wont fail u to teach u piano and im soo happy that u really improve alot...beyond my expectation cume tadikan u nangis so in the beginning u were not there. But then, after time, u were back to urself and.....im speechless....

Adik...U GOT MANY POTENTIAL...IM PROUD OF YOU...CONTINUE TO PURSUE YOUR DREAM.... INSYALLAH 1 DAY...U OWNS UR DREAM PIANO...AND NEVER FAILS URSELF AND ME... (^_^)

Adik...abang taufiq support u all the way from all directions... =)

A remembrance that cant be forgotten...His vision is still as clear as yesterday once more...as if nothing happens from the beginning till the end...However, its just an unreal illusion for him to see. It not a fact and its never true...Great times is over...He is yet to recover...When 2 are 1, everything is perfect...But when 1 are 2...Its hurtful...

The picture above is just a normal picture...Yet meaningful and hurtful. Maybe she is still struggling to forget him and may be she is not...Maybe he is still struggling to ignore her and maybe he is not. But from what he knows, she will never knows. And from what she knows, he will never knows. When time tells them to meet up, they did meet up. But what matters is the heart in them. The heart that cant explain every unclear situation...The heart that may have been recovered but is still hurt. The heart that cant talk but just beat a tempo. A heart that always go fast and never go slow.

When all the hopes she put in him disappear, when all her love in him fade away, when all his touch on her lacks more, when all his smile turns to be sad, when all her soft-spoken words muted, when all his talkative mouth shut, when all his dream never come true, when all her dream scattered in pieces...

When both of them remained silence, when both of them lost their hope, when both of them forget their promises, when both of them ignore their loyalty, when both of them were not meant to be together, when both of them cried in silence, when both of them fell apart, when both of them get separated...

Distance was smiling. Distance was crying. Distance taught the meaning of love. Distance taught the meaning of hugs. Distance taught the meaning of kisses. Distance taught the meaning of jokes. Distance taught the meaning of laughter. Distance made both of them alive. And...Distance killed both of them dead....

Seharusnya cinta ini bisa berdiri, sebagai sebuah istana megah
Menjadi persinggahan mahkota hati, melambang kebahagiaan cinta

Seharusnya cinta ini bisa tersenyum, seolah seorang puteri ayu
Akan menjadi idaman mahkota hati, lambang pengorbanan cinta yang suci

Tetapi selingkar kekasihmu, telah terurai dan meragut dan menyakar hati ini jua
Masih lagi selingkar kasihmu, yang menghantui prasedar dan meragut rindu daku jua

Kepastian yang tidak di nanti, tetapi cinta masih menanti di dalam hati...

Hello readers...have u ever lost hopes and give up? If u did, accept the fate because that is what god had been written to ur life above. However, if u never give up, u can make a change...But its really up to him above to tell whether u deserve it with ur own hardship or not. As a human that want to achieve the dreams...never ever give up ok..

Lead urself in the world is leading urself in ur life. Okay. Be positive, stand up and lift urself up. Its ok to make minor mistakes but its not ok to develop it into major mistakes. Ur mistakes correct you out. Please remember...treasure ur life and not life treasure u. Sudden problem doesnt mean sudden death. To learn something new, took ur path yesterday. Learn from it today. Apply what u have learnt tomorrow.

It never easy to achieve ur dreams. Its never impossible. I just thought that life is like a plant. 1st stage, plant the trust in u. 2nd stage, let the time bloom the trust and develop confident. Once it has been fully develop, it is very strong. Then, wait with time to bloom the confident to determination and action. This 3rd stage is the more important. This is because its the action of what u should do to achieve ur dreams. Dont ever give up and lose hope ok. This is because u just succeed ur 1st 2 stages and its a big achievement. However, u are 1 stage away to achieve it. Determine ur action and deserve what u get. Lastly is stage 4, whereby ur determination and action develop into achievement and victory. Once u complete all the stages, Be proud of urself (^_^)

DONT GIVE UP and LOSE HOPE from the 1st stage ever. Otherwise, it is as good as none.

Tell urself which stages are u at now to achieve ur dreams. Never give up ok. Read my older post...im a person that dont understand give up. Lastly...may i hope u achieve ur dreams....and NEVER GIVE UP!!!!!

Fiq is fiq...never give up in life....

Dear blog....
As what i have promised...Im back and ur name has changed....
Rhythm, tempo and melodies...I cant see but i can feel that u are very happy with ur new name...YAY!!! high 5....hahaha...U shall be filled with philosophies, jokes and humours ok...DADADA...no more sad sad or i whack u out...haha...(^_^)

Music is my life, Tempo is my heartbeat, Rhythm is my heart and Melodies is my soul. Any idea why i said this? Aites let me tell you...

Without a heartbeat u die. Without a tempo, music die.
Without a heart, u cant live. Without a rhythm, music cant live.
Without a soul, there is no u. Without a melody, there is no music.

People live in different life. Expression happens when they speak.
Music live in different genres. Expression happens when they play.

Thus, music is my life. Philosophies of mine shall lead my path. God's guidiance shall assist me. And dun worry be happy...and cheeeeerrssss (^_^)

Fiq is fiq...music in me...

Dear isz,

There is nothing to be sorry for ok. Smile u gendeng (^_^). Haha. I did manage to kill my bad part of me. Its very difficult near impossible but i made it and prove it possible. When im away from you, my heart is telling me u are a precious friend.Its my loss if i leave you. My soul is telling me, people make mistakes and no one is perfect. So this is a fact that we both have done it and im glad we both realise it. I have changed, with god guidance.

I need a friend in you. Im glad that you are still there. As how much I need help, its as much as i need u. I am glad too that all my problems had been solved myself. But it could be much better and faster if i approach a friend. A friend is someone that care. A friend is someone that understand. A friend is someone that learn what is a friend.

I also realized that u dont have any bad intention even a single dust. Its just me. This is because im still curing from a girl known as 'A'. Its impact is too much for me to bare. Otherwise, im perfectly fine.

I always hope adik to success in her dreams. She got many potential. In fact her courage, desire and determination is burning her in blaze. She is someone too precious till im out of words what to say. And everytime i go ur house, ur family and u make my day. Im too glad till speechless to know u and ur family. (^_^)

As for now, im as good as new ok. YAY!!! I got a friend...and its you...

FIQ (^_^)

Sorry for barging into your privacy dear Taufiq. This is Pulchritudinous speaking. Right from the bottom of everything.

S.
O.
R.
R.
Y.

I was being too harsh on you. I should have been much mmore clearer in the first place. You were such a wonderful friend. And you still are. But, if you just wana cut off our friendship, I shall be fine with it. And, I'm sure you'd be happy with it. Maybe I've got a large ego with me. Still, somehow it hurts. When you take things all wrong. Maybe the way you think is totally not what I expected.

Again, I'm sorry. And, I won't go anywhere far. Just beep when you need. And, hope you can start to throw ur unwanted ego away. And, you said NOT to say anything on your FB. So, I resorted to saying things on your blog. Sorry for barging into your privacy again.

Hope you're fine the way you are. Don't do stupid things. Don't go against the right. Don't think you're super power. Most of all, don't hurt the ones you love the most. No matter how much they hurt you. And, I don't have bad intentions. How much I wish you could understand me. Sigh.

See ya. Probably soon.

Pulchritudinous intruding someone's privacy!~

Dear love to hate...

Your owner here want to ignore you till he has fully accomplished what he want. He promises you that once he achieve what he want to, ur name will be change okay. And u will be filled with joy, laugh, few drops of tears and full of jokes and craps ok. Please smile like this (^_^). Please dun cry. I can feel that u are crying though i cant see.

I gonna ignore you okay. U shall be a temporary dead blog. I promise when Im back, everything will be much better to what i expected. And ur name will be change. I PROMISE YOU (^_^)

From ur crazy owner
Taufiq

Hehe.....im back....peeps....dont be surprised if i say....CHEM SUX...cheers =)
A student who has fall in love with chemistry for 7 years finally had enough of it. Haha...yeah....so peeps...dun be surprised okay. Well....analytical chemistry kills.

Err...im not surprised that all my friends were surprised when i said...chem sux... fuck it. hehe =). Well...its just me ok. Lets not talk about chemistry cause the owner of this blog had enough shit. During my lesson before break, my hands start to shake by itself. I could feel my muscles and veins vibrates. Hmm...experimental in progress.

Then, we went to north canteen. And oh my, all my friends do care for me and ask me to stop drinking redbull and back out from my experiment. I just (^_^) at them and said 'dun worry, im very very fine.' U readers dont have to worry about me ohkay...u just enjoy reading my blogs with my fingers typing full force and vibrates by its own. I wont regret what will happen to me okay. Remember my post before this? Never ever regret when and after ur experiment and the results.

To my deary friends and classmates, dun worry about me ok. Im fine. Nah im not. Nah im fine. Nah im not. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Whatever it is, worry about ur own self okay.
Peeps 3 cheers...HIP HIP HURRAY (^_^)

Hey peeps....im very glad that u all love to read my post...some of u say its funny and very interesting...and some of u say awesome....especially my beloved class...

Haha..well...expect the unexpected. I really dont expect things to happen this way. Its very weird. Hahaha....OK ok..since most of the peeps are very curious about many experiments that i have done....I share w u peeps ok....

Once upon a time, long long ago, but not that long. So it can considered to be short. As a conclusion, it is long short or short long..haha..therefore..

Once upon a time, long short or short long ago, a boy by the name of u-know-who made an experiment. He used shampoo to soap his body, and used soap to shampoo his hair. Then the outcome is....my hair turns to be very stiff like gatsby hair and the skin of my body is very soft. Like a girl. HAHAHA....well, experiencing all this was fun after all. Hehe....and its worth it to try once in a lifetime. Hahaha...

Have u heard of vanilla coke? Now...have u ever heard of vanilla bandung? hahaha... I discovered it long short ago. Its yummy and creamy. So i did enjoy the 'new desert' until got 1 time, it tasted like...urgh...like vomit....yuck..haha but nice to eat though...Weird isn't it...haha

Lectures starting soon. My body feels weak. My finger really not happy with me. I am using force to type. Inside bus 72 at ite ang mo kio, i felt weird. My muscles in my chest expand and tickles. I laughed like a crazy guy but who want to care right. Then i thought very carefully. It should be the optimum rate of chemical reactions in my body..haha...the 5 cans of redbull and 4 pills of panadols...peeps...im sorry i gotta stop here man...my lecture just arrived with her smelly butt..hahaha and do remind me to buy redbull later ok...im out of redbull....huhuhu

(^_^)

I never sleep one whole night as I just broke my old record by drinking 5 cans of redbull within 1.5 hours. However, i feel weird now. Even i am not sleepy now, my body feels weak. In fact too weak to move about. Man, why the reaction is like this? Ok. I guess my mind is still as good as dead. But it is still awake. I got 1 more hour to prepare myself for second day of school. Tomorrow got cca display day for the freshman year 1. I will be damn tired as today got final practice which end at 9 pm. Dont know what time I gonna reach home.

Life can be a joke. Life can be a lesson. Life can be anything for a person to see. As for me, life is a roller-coaster. Shit...My hands are moving by itself...Argh...Who give a shit by the way right...Should be the bloody effect of the redbull which i drank. Hahaha. What's wrong with my head now? Argh shit..Feel like my head is to light for me and its like flying away from my body. Argh..gimme few mins...i go consume not 2 not 3 but 4 pills of panadols ok...I really cant take the pain any longer...

Hey im back. I feel nausea and want to throw up but just bear, control and think of something else. Guess I never sleep for the whole night haha. Man, now i feel like having fever but need to go to school. 20 more mins to prepare. Haha...Eh wait...Did i took panadols after i drank 5 cans of redbull? Well...i dont wanna think about it yaw. Nothing to be afraid...worst come to the worst, i suffered from over-dosage or toxic chemical reactions. Still experiment things to myself peeps. Haha...During o level, i took 2 pills of panadols, 2 spoon of cough syrup (cousydryl) and a can of 100 plus and make a fine guess how long i slept without waking up...haha..its 3 bloody days and night. Once I woke up, feel high as though im flying with my body on the ground. Haha...if u really want to try this experiment...U may proceed. Any loss of life is at ur own risk (^_^). As for me, i know what i deal, i know how i deal and im responsible for my actions. HAHA

My advice to all readers...make your choice now, for tomorrow may be far too late.

Here no evil, dont u see no evil, dont u lay no evil down on me
Speak no evil, dont u think no evil, dont u play with evil cause im free


There was one time, a boy make an experiment on his life. Forget everything. Even his loved ones. Reset and reformat his heart and soul. Think of nothing, not even dreaming. However, he backed out for his love ones. Now he felt very regret by not doing and fulfilled his experiment. Hais. HAHAHA...

For those who want to do monkey business experiment(mbe)...Let the experienced talk...
1) Take your time and dont rush to do it
2) Never ever regret after you do it
3) Never consult friends as they make u think twice
4) Never consult your loved ones as they make u back out of it
5) Have no fear and have full confidence in yourself
6) Its either do or never and no such thing as halfway
7) Expect the unexpected
8) Erase all the negative thoughts and fills with positive thoughts
9) Be responsible for it
10) If u think its very bad for urself, DONT DO IT
(but for me...I dare and who care(^_^))
11) When doing it, dont ever think of turning back as it is useless
12) Dont pull ur friends to join u. This is ur own mbe so do alone
13) When doing it, dont think of all ur loved ones as u will suffer
14) Take ur time to do it
15) Take the risk of the good, bad and ugly
16) Never ever regret when doing it
17) Dont ever think u are hurting urself
18) Follow as planned
19) For those who really want to do their own mbe..U ARE READY (^_^)
20) If any fucking shit happens...Dun blame me...if u die...see u in afterlife =)

So have i make myself clear? Any questions?...
Remember...
1) No pain no gain...
2) U have not do it, U will not know it
3) Life is a roller-coaster
4) Achievement is a level up in life

However...
1) Curiosity kills the cat
2) Regretting is too late and never an option
3) We all live once and we all die once
4) Sometimes, things will not happen as planned
5) Result can be critical
6) Paralysed may happen, even death
7) Bare the consequences
8) Prepare for the worst
9) All the best in ur mbe
10) To those who is daring, ignore however

If u are brave, daring, crazy and confident enough, ignore however totally ok...
As for me...I forget however and always remember

Okla...enough talk, Fuck it..my body cant take it anymore, my muscles are weakened. My head is flying somewhere...Got to fight back my body, strengthened my muscles and catch back my head...Few more mins before i need to prepare my school stuff, prepare for school and......................................................................
Prepare for the worst (^_^)....and...nothing fears......

(^_^)

Hey Taufiq,

U are an idiot...I hate u...u are my bad side...u almost destroyed my life.. I hate my past...dont u dare make me reminisce about my fucking past..I still love myself.. I still love my heart and soul...I hate you and I HATE YOU...

Dont u dare appear in my life again...U are the bad side of me..I have killed you 4 months ago..its holy true...but how to hell u revived...huh..TELL ME...i shall kill you once more and forever.

No matter how hard u wanna get me...dream on...go get life and fuck urself...
And dun you ever dare come across my mind once again and eneters my life...FUCK YOU

To my dear heart and soul....

I love u so much than my even self. But the bad side of me just revived and make me think of my past. What should i do..Im damn confused. I need ur guidiance. I really need ur help. Show me back the direction that i have lost. Lead me back the path that I missed. Bring me back my life that just gone. You need to help me now or soon before my bad side of me overtake you....please help me for once...help me please... I beg you....

Once the bad side of me overtake you, i believe im back to my old self...which i dun ever wish for...gosh...come on...do something before its too late..Come on..wake up..
Do something...dont remain silence...WELL FOR NOW I HOPE A SILENT PRAYER HELP...

Hello there...Taufiq here

Hie taufiq...i have disappeared in ur life for more than 4 months....Hahaha...im ur bad side...remember me? recognise me? Muahaha....ur stupidity turns u into a fool. I have told u dont ever trust girls. They just sick in the ass. Btw give up hope man. Have a chill bro. go light some sticks. Did u remembered what i told u during ur o level? Too easy to puff and too tough to stop. The key point is to easy to puff. Come on boy, the sticks are waiting for you...

Fuck life, fuck hope, fuck everyone. Hell yeah...remember me when u feel down okay... Im here to be ur nightly companion. Bro, go drink 1 more can la....nothing to be fear of.U got no life right. Take this experiment to get ur life man..hahaha...well just forget the past man. fuck love hell yeah...hate girls hell yeah...go take 1 stick and puff la...no more stress yall..

For now....all girls are the same...are u a jerk or are they bitches. Man...i knew it u would say they are bitches..Go to hell w them..go and die in hell and get new life bro. haha...fuck life and give up in everything man. The more u give up, the less stress u produce. The less stress u produce, enjoy la bro...I know u hate me very much. I caused ur history. I almost destroyed you. But u are too good to people especially girls till u lose every shit. Haha...promises meant to break, history meant to repeat, life meant to die, love meant to hate...by the wae bro...u did think of me hahaha....look at ur blog title...destroy love man...destroy it...its excrutiating when comes to rejection and break up. So fuck it bro..

HAHAHA...LIVE,LOVE,BURN,DIE

Gotta Love the 4 words bro...remember......

Its a fuck up world with a fuck up face..
Everybody owns with their fuck up taste..
Fuck up love and a fuck up life..
Think of me to make a fuck up smile..
And its a fuck up hope and a fuck up dreams..
Forget all what u want with a fuck up shit..
Fuck is a word so what u gonna do?
Fuck up me and fuck up u!!!

From Taufiq

Hi Taufiq,

I am glad to read about ur post. Well...im still confused right now and i dun know what should i do. At first i thought that im dead once again but after reading ur post, I feel better. Taufiq, i dont mean to hurt u. I dun mean to hurt my own heart and soul. Please understand my situation ok. I dun know what is the best for me. I never know what future lies in me. I learn to accept things that never happen which i really want to happen. I just dont believe in love anymore. Love is just a feeling. Its true there is nothing without love. But i can survive without love. In fact, i just lied to make me feel better.

It very difficult for me to face the fact. I did have many chances but im lost. Did i throw my chance? Did i treat it very lightly? I dont even know what am i supposed to do because she is the 1st girl i ever chase for. And she will be the last girl that i chased for. And now...Spoof...Everything has gone in a blink. I know that its near impossible to get her love at first but i never give up. But now, im betraying myself. She managed to read my heart and turn over the pages gently. However, she just tore another precious pages of mine. And i know i at level 0 to win her heart. This is because i am not sure what should i do to win her heart. I did follow what she said. Slowly. Time is always there. But, err...ah its ok....

So for now, im as good as dead. Love revived me yet love killed me. Well taufiq, i dont even understand why u still have got the guts to cheer me up...as if nothing happens, all hopes are still there, all chances are still there. As i said, i wont give up. But, if she really cant get my love...till my last hope...what should i do...Man im very lost in confusion. And i have lost all sense of direction. So shall i make my own conclusion? To stay out of this attention? To make my own correction? And realise my own judgement? And for love forsaken...Shall i leave the word in forbidden...

Its like a, whirlind that destroy all my faiths...
Its like a, hurricane that push all my hopes....
Its like a, paranoid that struck in within...
Its like a face inside that lies behind my life...

From Taufiq

...
... Is everything
... Is everything over
... Is everything over again???

Dear Taufiq...
U are very confused about ur life. Are there still hope for love? Is everything fine? Did u make mistakes that u never realise? Should u cry? Should u sigh? Should u lie? Thousands of questions are in ur mind. Must i continue to chase my dream? Must i continue to hope my goal? Must i? Must i? Must i? Answer me Taufiq. Dont you ever dare to ignore all this stupid feelings as i know ur heart and soul here is crying. Dont you dare pretend nothing happens as i know u cant forget ur forgotten. Dont u dare think that u are right because im here to prove u are wrong. Have u ever question urself instead of answers? Have u? Well...This three dots can represent anything. It can represent "it's the end". It can represent "A new beginning". I know half of you is telling "It's the end" while the other half is saying "it's not over".

U need to accept who you are at first. I know in love, u always lose. But do you always lose? Well I cant answer that but from what i know, u did lost. However, u did find someone better. But it seems that you are now losing. Am i right? Taufiq, i got a question for u. Do u still believe in love? I know that in u, love hurts and love kills. So for now what should u do? Should u take the risk or should u not and admit defeat. I cant do anything because im ur heart and soul...

Im here to help u out to either get rid of this and proceed with ur life. Taufiq, i love u so much. Im ur heart and im ur soul. Do think of me. Now u are doing an experiment which is hurting urself. Dont be stubborn. By doing this, u hurt me. But no matter what...I cant do anything...I am not u but im inside u...

Lastly...think of ur future. Dont repeat ur mistakes. Always pray and hope for the best. Never give up. And always cheer up which i know u cant for now.

From Taufiq

Last Saturday, II had guitar ensemble competition. SRJC. I was waiting for her school until it had been announced. The last two school. Finally. Cant really see her play but its okay.Supported her school. AWAKKKKKKKKKKKK....IM so BANGGA of you =)...

Then...after that, she k.o. in the car..Poor her.....At night something happenla...

AWAK,
Jangan stress stress tau...Jangan kasih saya worried about u lagi tau...However, Ur problem is my problem okay. Do call me kalau awak ada masalah. Sayang...Smile macam gini... (^_^) .. hehe

II....TT worried about you baby... (+_+) ...

Year 2 is coming in 1 more week. Math class 2 is coming in 1 more week. School is waiting in 1 more week. Projects are waiting in 1 more week. Me gonna be busy....I wish I have time to spend with her. I wish I have time to spend with her family. I wish I pass my exam and get good grades. I wish my wish come true..Insyallah..

I never update my blog for quite some time. My sister conquer the internet with her new lappy. Show off la. Whatever.

I came to her house last tuesday. Im glad that boy told me about his problem and im always there to help him. Then, i taught him and adik nurish. Very fun. Then, reel came back from school. Then, finally....II was back. Though we spent very few time together, im happy just to see her. Her face, her smile, her funny hair, herself made my day. Her mum made me...err.. i dun knoe what was it but yummy. Then, before i went home, I ate macaroni soup w cili padi. Hell yeah...my favourite.

Today, as per normal. Gone nuts and haywire with reel, boy and adik nurish. I helped adik nurish completed her math and english homework. Im glad to make reel happy. I help her out and treat her like my own sis...btw my sis and her same age but different height and weight. Then I make boylove geography. He said he only love geog when Im around teaching home. When Im not there, he hate it...hais...gonna make him love it one day. But, he said that he gonna love history. Then I told him of coz....i love history.... =) And II was not around =(... Oh gawd... time is very unfair to treat us like this......

II.....u shall be the hour hand clock.
TT......u shall be the minute hand clock,

To my beloved friend, hafiz. When I am down, you pull me up. When you are down I pull you up.
Thank you from the very bottom of my heart what you have been helping me ever since I gt to know you. Till now, i'm still happy that i get to know you as you are a friend more worth of anything else, even a piece of gold. Thank you so much that you to decorate the blogskin of me, II and our blog. You really know who are us. You really know what lies in our heart. You really change the blogskin to what we deserved. HAFIZ....THANK YOU SO MUCH.

I really owe you many things, all the good deeds of your help. Thus, anything you need help... Just message me, call me or chat on msn with me. For my brother HAFIZ...IM AVAILABLE ONLY FOR YOU 24/7

Music is perfect to make you relax. When students score full marks for test and exams, their marks is perfect. When it comes to life, it is bullshit. No life in this world is perfect. This is because no one is perfect. Since no one is perfect, no life is perfect. My life is never perfect. I'm proud to say because i never tell a lie about my life. There are ups and downs in my life. I cant tell u whats the good and bad part of my life. Life is a roller-coaster. Its thrilling, scary, fun and many more.

Perfect was a word i believed in life before, but no more. Its a word that killed me in my life. I wont say what happen. Then, came along a girl who brighten up my life. I was so glad. She taught me the meaning of perfect in life. I was sooooo glad to have her in my life. But its just for a while. Its total crap and bullshit after all. She was the one who taught me the meaning of perfect yet she was the one that killed me with the meaning of perfect. In the end, she was not perfect that she left me alone in loneliness. I tried my best to get her back perfectly but she really proved me that she was not perfect. I really gave up. Thus, the word perfect in life had gone far far away from me and don't u ever wish it will come back. No matter what, i'm still a guy that never understand these 2 words......GIVE UP......

However.......I believe life can be better when you sacrifice, improve, work hard, struggle and deserve for it. Thus, life can be better but not perfect

Life is never perfect. No one is perfect. Perfect is bullshit in life. Ask yourself. Tell yourself. Are you perfect in life? Are you perfect in yourself. If you are perfect, only god knoes. If you are lying, too bad for you.

A promise I made to myself that I wont ever be a jerk and leave her out of my life.
A promise I made to her that I will keep secrets and help her in her family and her life.
A promise I made to my small sister that I will take care of her and I will never forget and leave her.
A promise I made to Hazwan (wan pao) and khairiah that I wont ever leave her in loneliness and sorrowness
A promise I made to fulfill all my promises above
A promise I made that I shall never break any of my promises
A promise I made to end all the bad things in life
A promise I made to make all good things in life
A promise I made to her, my sister, hazwan (wan pao), khairiah and myself
A promise I made to keep my promise.....

We are the world. Just imagine that melodious song being played by an organ (piano sound)
She played the melodies while he played the chords. At first there was no coordination. Then, he taught her about tempo. Slowly, the melodies blended with the chords, make it a perfect tune in harmony. After a time, it seemed to be much better than as before.

This is a great lesson for him. She is the melodies in him and he is the chords in her. Once both of these blend together, it will form a perfect tune. A tune in harmony. A tune that entertains. A tune that plays. Without melodies, the song will be bored as only chords were heard. Chords are baselines of music that give a great structure of the song. Without chords, the song will be as meaningless as only melodies were heard. Melodies are the color of the music that give the meaning of the song. Both are very important. Both needs each other.

However, the most important than ever. Tempo. It give a trust of time between melodies and chords. Without tempo, both cant coordinate. Without tempo, both are useless. Without tempo, both are as bad as enemies. With the presence of tempo, melodies and chords, a perfect song is being played

II is the melody, TT is the chord, Tempo is the trust of time that blend these two together

Yesterday, I came to her house as per normal. Teach Nurish piano. Then, went to pray and wish that god answers all my calls. Then, her mum made for me sausage pastry. SOOOO YUMMY. I ate it with chilli sauce. Then i conducted her 1st test on piano. Sigh. Quite disappointing. Back to basic girl. Do learn your basic. Slowly upgrades youself. Do take your time. Nothing to be rushed for. Then, Nureel came back from her school. Then II. I taught she was having her cca but she backed out as she was sick....II.....TT IS WORRIED ABOUT YOU......PLEASE RECOVER SOOOOON...

Then, her mum made me lasagna. WHOOOOOOOWWWWWHHHH......power baby.... Yummy.. and i added chilli sauce to make it more sexy. HAHAHAHA. All of us ate together as if we were a family. Then we had a great long yet fun chat about Cik Rohaya's big family. OH GOD...Im sooo happy for her united and happy big family. Unlike me =( ..... I shall not talk about my small family.
Peace out peeps. They go Genting highlands like many many times unlike my family. Haiz.. Go KL, waste money and time. Hmm...my family is a total opposite to her family. My heart shrink in sadness when they talked to me about their every happy trip. I'd wished my family will be an adventurous one like them but....forget it.

I was very surprised that Cik Rohaya said that she intended to bring me along back to her lovely kampong. I was very glad about it. But...hais...as if my stricted mum let me go and my hard-heart dad give me permission. My dad started to be more strict. But not really. He seems to not support me about this matter which he always did. Im start to worry about my family now. My sis....er...........ah its ok.....whats the fucking point to say about her...... I have tried my very best to make my family 'get along' with her family. However, all my efforts come down to waste. Argh Fuck it....Thanx to someone....that i shall never tell who...Thanx to someone.... that i always betray myself....Thanx to someone....that always win and make me lose... Nothing else to say......

TT is very disappointed........to someone......but being cheered......by II and her happy family.....