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Today I get to knoe her for 1 month...Yesterdae night...I chat w her through msn...I told her abt my mum and my sis that they dun wan me to have gf...my mum is freaking jealous and she wan to get rid of any girls whom entered my life...my sis always finding ideas to burn my anger and to get rid of her..no matter wat..I WILL NEVER LEAVE HER... I'D RATHER BE DEAD....WHY No one can understand my love story!!!!...

As i was chatting with her...thousands of questions I hid from her becoz i dun have my own gut to hurt a girl's heart...Many obstacles are present to break us apart... NOOO...I WONT EVER LET ANYTHING BREAK US APART...becoz I HAD ENOUGH...SHIT.... I dun wan my fucking history to happen again...Tat my mum interfered and caused a heavy disaster that ruined my love with My 1st ex...SUHAILAH....i gotta admit i miss her eventhough i had forget her....She is the 1st girl that taught me the meaning of love and misses...yet she is the 1st girl that disappear in my life with full of sadness, tears and misses...all thanx to u-know-who....Im just a lonely guy that always fail in love..perhaps i dun even know what love mean...

I chatted wif her and i never smiled...in fact my heart was shouting for me to CRY...Nah....like i said..cry for something that is worth to cry for..am i rite?
She made me smile becoz i am very proud of her that she had learn to be patient esp with her sis..Nureel and all her enemies.... =)... We had a great time learning about our common criteria...we also wished the best thing happen...

Wat is the best thing that i mentioned? Imagine i get along with her family and they treat me as a part of their family...Then her family come over to my house to get along with my family and..spoof....we are honored to combine both our families and form a big happy family....I always pray and hope that this sweet imagination will become a reality one fine day....Insyallah...



Me and my lovely dad....at my neighbour's wedding ceremony...Selamat Pengantin Baru KAK MARIANA and UR BELOVED HUBBY.. :)...Her love story has just completed and a new family has just began....WHEN IS MY TURN =(... Perhaps i dun even have my turn =(

Zahir dan batinku terseksa,
tiada siapa yang mengertinya,
hanya perasaan cemburu yang hadir dalam hatinya,
apakah silapku?
apakah dosaku?
rasa kecewa dalam cinta telah menjadi kawanku,
rasa sunyi nan sepi telah menjadi hidupku,
aku tidak mampu untuk kehilangan kasih sayangku lagi,
kanku menahan airmataku yang membasahi pipi dan bumi,
kan ku renung gambar wajah mu,
yang menemani dan menyinari sanubari ku,
kini aku dalam kesempitan,
hatiku dalam kesakitan,
Ku harap kau menjadi penawarku,
ku harap kau menjadi hidupku,
tanpa ku sedari,
airmataku mengalir di pipi,
kanku berdoa kepada illahi hidupmu untuk bersamaku,
semoga yang maha kuasa kabulkan doa hajatku....amin ya robbal a'lamin

II.....PLEASE DUN LEAVE ME...PLEASE DUN LEAVE ME...PLEASE DUN LEAVE ME...PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE... :(

II.....TT NEED U... =(